I was a person who got bullied. There were several reasons for this. The main reason was that I had a crush on older guys. I didn’t date my peers, and the boys started to bully me because of this. They wanted my attention, but I ignored them. Another reason was that when I was 13, I was different from other girls. I dated boys, drank alcohol and went to clubs, dyeing my hair different colors. However, I tried hard to study even though it was difficult for me. My behavior broke the patterns imposed on children, which led to me being bullied.
Many people my age want to go back to school and childhood. I remember my school days with a shudder. It’s hard for me to blame anyone in particular for this. For a long time, I believed that I was to blame for all this, that I somehow deserved to be treated like this. But no. As an adult, I realize that I was just a child. And children are not to blame for anything. Adults make them angry and unhappy.
I got caught up in a cycle of events and certain circumstances. Became possessed by an evil clown. Although it was demonic possession that eventually saved me from such stupidity as suicide, it gave me the opportunity to escape from this life where I was being broken and destroyed. Change your life completely.
My first encounter with the joker was when I was about 8 or 9 years old. There are some films about him, for example, «It» based on Stephen King or the movie «Raven» in 1992. It was with the movie «Raven» that it all began. We had this movie on tape at home. My mother used to collect them when she was young. We had a shelf of children’s cartoons and there was a shelf of adult films. I watched the tapes on the VCR all the time, and the VCR was my babysitter. When my mom was at work, I also watched adult films. Now I’m glad that Mom didn’t have any erotica on her adult shelf. My favorite adult films were «Witchcraft» and «The Raven.» These are all films about mysticism and horror. In the movie «Raven», as well as the movie «Joker» in 2019, it is shown that a man puts makeup on his face, clearly outlines his eyes, and makes a big smile. It’s called the Joker mask. In this way, you become like him, as if you put on his image and become his avatar in this world. But he also rises in the hierarchy of demons due to your energy. By putting on this mask and wearing it for a while, you become obsessed with the Joker.
It’s logical to ask me a question:
– Does a person who wears a clown costume become obsessed with the Joker?
I cannot answer this question unequivocally with a yes or a no. However, I do know that if you dress up as a clown even once, you will be damaged. You will always «eat the Joker» from now on. You have given yourself access by putting on his face. Ignorance of the laws of the spiritual world does not exempt you from responsibility. Therefore, I strongly advise against dressing up as clowns. People who subconsciously dislike and fear clowns are doing the right thing.
I grew up when children weren’t taken care of. When bad things were normal. Children grew up on the street. They were raised by the street, not by their family. Some children were lucky. They were loved. My parents used me to work out their problems. They hurt my feelings. I was dependent on my parents. You can ask me why nobody helped me. I can answer. Nobody cared. Nobody needs other people’s children. Whatever I said, whoever I complained to, I always got the same answer: «It’s your fault.»